Lillyakins

Well my Lillian Hope Nobles is actually here! And she is perfect! Even the nurses and doctors raved about how cute she was! I am one proud, tired momma! She was born at 7:59 am on May 17th, she was 5 lbs 2 oz and 18 inches long. She was a little early. Around week 30 I developed high blood pressure and massive feet!!! I mean they looked like potatoes! So due to mom's swollness she had to be delivered via c-section. Ladies that is the way to go for sure!

We had to get to the hospital at 5:oo in the morning! People I don't do mornings so this was a toughy for Steph, because we had to get up at 3:30! But how could I sleep anyways right?! I was having a baby in the morning! Anyway, we got to the hospital and our best friend's mom was my nurse. She tried to give me my IV and my nerves started getting the best of me! I started shaking like a leave in November! Plus I have like baby veins that hate needles! So somebody else had to give it to me and it shot out blood like a slasher movie! I thought I might faint but I knew that was the least of what was about to happen to me! Anyway once the IV was in place the happy meds started working and I really didn't care anymore. I was still super nervous though and still kept shaking!

My entire family came and was in the room with me until time to go back and have the baby. My sister wore this enormous bow on her head (she is ever so trendy) and I truly think later in life when she looks at the pictures the head attire will be deeply regretted! But it was cute and matched her cardigan perfectly! She's good like that! But they call me back and sweet darling husband prayed with me in the bathroom (I needed his assistance frequently with this task, they don't tell you how many time you will have to potty due to the fluids!). That I think was my favorite part prior to the baby of course, not the potty situation the quiet time we had in the bathroom where I darling husband held me and in his arms and prayed over our baby and our new life together. Then they wheeled me through the hall and I just closed my eyes and tried not to panic!

We got down to the operating room which by the way looked a lot like a dungeon and had bug lights in the hallway. I had no problem with that idea until afterwards. Yuck! Anyway they made me hoop to another table that was sorta like a tilt-a-whirl. And guys they strap down your arms! Believe me I am not going to try and help out with this operation but I don't see the need to the restraints! I was then made to sit on the edge of the bed and a very bossy take charge sort of woman began giving me my spinal block meds. Before I could even get my feet on the table the medicine was working in me feet! It is a very weird feeling having sensation in only one half of your body. Once again I just kept my eyes closed. Then my husband came in and touched my face and I knew he was in the room with me. The operation began and 3 nanoseconds later my beautiful baby was in the world!

They rushed her over to the tables and started all that who ha that do and my husband brought her to me and I got to bask in her perfection for a split second and she was whisked out the door with her daddy. Apparently I didn't rejoin the party for about 2 hours later. None of this I remember, but I do remember being wheeled into a hall full of friends and family like it was a parade! I was still goofy and for some reason saw my cousin and decided to tell her how nice her hair looked on my way by. I have no idea what her hair looked like just went with it though. Then they placed my baby in my arms for the first time and all was right in the world. Whoever was in that room with me did not matter. I had my baby in my arms. She was and still is the most precious, pure, most beautiful thing I have ever looked at! She is the best thing and I love her!

Check out this great MSN video: Cats Argue Over Printer

Check out this great MSN video: Cats Argue Over Printer

I need some of this action in my life!!

In case you were wondering this is a Pudu...it's the smallest deer in the world. They only weigh about 25 pounds fully grown. It could live in the house!!!! And it looks very much like my Ralph!....who is a dog and I actually don't have a picture of him on my computer...sad face. But he looks just like this guy.

Newsletter

Every week I get a newsletter updating me on my growing belly (she's the size of a pack of Oreos!). This morning I opened it, and it announced that my baby was now 39 weeks old. This is wrong...my baby is only 23 weeks old?! So I read a little ways down, it talked about playing peek-a-boo, and laughing together...this newsletter was one that I did not delete for some reason and is referring to the baby I would have had. My baby would have been 39 weeks old. How different my life would be if my hearts one true desire had been granted. Time heals wounds, this little newsletter was like a little shove down the healing hill but it was no means a giant push like it would have been this time last year! I believe there are some wounds that don't heal completely. The are always in the background waiting to be called to center stage.

I love the child that is growing inside me. She is my constant companion, my nutritionist, my personal stylist (as my Gianni Bini's have turned into Dr. Scholl's) she's the reason for everything! My parents are in limbo trying to decide whether they should fill in their pool or not. A deciding factor was a green and white striped bikini with watermelons on the hinny! Once that purchase was discussed the idea of a fence was put on the drawing table. No decision has been reached to date. My husband is selling his truck (although this is no real surprise as he's owned 10 trucks in the 5 years we've been married!) I can almost sit on my hair because I'm scared to go to the salon because of the fumes!

A BABY CHANGES EVERYTHING!!!!

Last month I read a fabulous book called "The Forgotten Garden" by Kate Morton. In the book each of the characters have each lost a child in some way (a "regular" person may not have picked up this information or deemed it as relevant) One character loses her child to an accident, one is infertile, one gives her child away through adoption, and one decides to have an abortion. All that back ground stuff is just shoved in there but it helps define the characters. The story is not about these women's loses but a mystery of an abandoned child. To me, this book was about how life's tragedies shapes us as people.

Its such as big part of you, that sometimes hurt is like a ghost haunting you. But thanks to the Holy Ghost its not something that has to define, overtake, overwhelm, consume, etc. etc.

Life is good...and short and full of ghosts, but it's worth living!

Because He lives I can face tomorrow.

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Snow Funny Photos WSFA

Hope my Lilly is this excited about the mornings...her mom is NOT a morning person!

Check out this great MSN video: Little girl gives herself a pep talk

She likes a lot of stuff, mom was way down the list...after "her Alison" in fact. And dad was twice. She also likes her hair! Go girl, in 10 years I hope your mom pops this in when you are having some form of teenage girl angst melt down.

Mean Puppy...

I love how serious this little guy is!! I wouldn't mess with him! Looks like he's about to Judy Chop somebody right in the face!